Can I, just for once in my life, be selfish?
Just once?
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Don't say things like that
~BECAUSE THEY ARE RICH
Couple weeks ago, before Dad returned to China, my parents went out to some auntie's gathering of some sort, I can't remember.
What I do remember was Mom coming home and going on (in front of my father) how good life will be if we were rich. (Because the auntie was fairly affluent, I suppose)
Mom: See, even though the kids grow up le, never give money to parents, they don't mind, cos they are rich.
Me: Maybe because uncle still working, that's why they never give? Besides, the kids are working overseas what.
Mom: That's why rich lo. Rich le, no problems one.
Me: Rich also still human what. Will feel boredom, will feel lonely.
Mom: Who say, rich can whole day play, where got bored? Rich good la.
Immediately, I got so pissed, I went into my room to steam in silence. Simply because, she hasn't worked in over two decades, Dad is working his ass off in China and she speaks as if we are out on the streets begging. To top it all off, she said all that right IN FRONT OF MY DAD!
This is why I hate her so bad sometimes. Pampered little woman.
Remember, think twice about the things you say.
~BECAUSE YOU HAVE EVERYTHING
Quite a long time ago, someone once said to me on my birthday:
I don't know what to get you. You have everything, so I didn't get you anything.
I can't remember who said it to me in particular, I'm pretty sure it was a close friend and those words stuck with me. Another reason I hate birthdays.
Nobody in this world has everything. Keep that in mind. The wealthy may want a gift with attachment value, the emotionally rich might appreciate a material gift.
Perfection doesn't exist.
So don't say things like that when you simply can't be bothered to give something. It just makes you look like you have an emotional range of a teaspoon.
~YOU SO GOOD LIFE
Now, I don't mean this post to anyone in particular, but it's another sentence I detest having uttered at me so many times by different people that I really need to get it off my chest.
Yes, I do know that I am living a good life, with money in my bank, food to eat, a shelter over my head.
But then again. Don't you have the same things?
Is your life really that terrible compared to mine?
Long working hours? Been there several times.
Insane family members? Check.
Stupid siblings? Check occasionally.
Financial problems? Been there, done that.
Screwy romantic relationships? Don't really wanna talk about it.
There. We are not so different, are we? Just because I try my best to be generous to people I love, to smile even when I'm not feeling particularly good, does not mean I am rich, or that I'm living a life without a single worry at all.
But then again. Maybe this just means everyone got me figured so wrong, I shouldn't even bother trying to explain.
Ah well. Just.... don't say things without going through your head.
Couple weeks ago, before Dad returned to China, my parents went out to some auntie's gathering of some sort, I can't remember.
What I do remember was Mom coming home and going on (in front of my father) how good life will be if we were rich. (Because the auntie was fairly affluent, I suppose)
Mom: See, even though the kids grow up le, never give money to parents, they don't mind, cos they are rich.
Me: Maybe because uncle still working, that's why they never give? Besides, the kids are working overseas what.
Mom: That's why rich lo. Rich le, no problems one.
Me: Rich also still human what. Will feel boredom, will feel lonely.
Mom: Who say, rich can whole day play, where got bored? Rich good la.
Immediately, I got so pissed, I went into my room to steam in silence. Simply because, she hasn't worked in over two decades, Dad is working his ass off in China and she speaks as if we are out on the streets begging. To top it all off, she said all that right IN FRONT OF MY DAD!
This is why I hate her so bad sometimes. Pampered little woman.
Remember, think twice about the things you say.
~BECAUSE YOU HAVE EVERYTHING
Quite a long time ago, someone once said to me on my birthday:
I don't know what to get you. You have everything, so I didn't get you anything.
I can't remember who said it to me in particular, I'm pretty sure it was a close friend and those words stuck with me. Another reason I hate birthdays.
Nobody in this world has everything. Keep that in mind. The wealthy may want a gift with attachment value, the emotionally rich might appreciate a material gift.
Perfection doesn't exist.
So don't say things like that when you simply can't be bothered to give something. It just makes you look like you have an emotional range of a teaspoon.
~YOU SO GOOD LIFE
Now, I don't mean this post to anyone in particular, but it's another sentence I detest having uttered at me so many times by different people that I really need to get it off my chest.
Yes, I do know that I am living a good life, with money in my bank, food to eat, a shelter over my head.
But then again. Don't you have the same things?
Is your life really that terrible compared to mine?
Long working hours? Been there several times.
Insane family members? Check.
Stupid siblings? Check occasionally.
Financial problems? Been there, done that.
Screwy romantic relationships? Don't really wanna talk about it.
There. We are not so different, are we? Just because I try my best to be generous to people I love, to smile even when I'm not feeling particularly good, does not mean I am rich, or that I'm living a life without a single worry at all.
But then again. Maybe this just means everyone got me figured so wrong, I shouldn't even bother trying to explain.
Ah well. Just.... don't say things without going through your head.
Distant Worlds
This is awful late but still....
The Distant Worlds Concert was fantastic. The best $40 I spent in my life.
Why?
NOBUO UEMATSU WAS THERE.
THE MAN HIMSELF!!
I will forever record this moment in my memory. Seeing Nobuo Uematsu to me is like a die-hard Beethoven fan seeing Beethoven himself.
Oh-my-god!! If I knew he was coming, I'd have brought all his CDs and made him sign the lot of them and never listen to them again for fear of spoiling the discs.
Anyway, although many of the tracks I have already listened to in orchestral version, but a CD definitely loses to real life hands down. And to top it all of, Nobuo joined the chorus and started singing One-Winged Angel. The most hilarious thing ever.
Ah, I so wish they'll come again. Still, the fun-nest night I had in a long time.
The Distant Worlds Concert was fantastic. The best $40 I spent in my life.
Why?
NOBUO UEMATSU WAS THERE.
THE MAN HIMSELF!!
I will forever record this moment in my memory. Seeing Nobuo Uematsu to me is like a die-hard Beethoven fan seeing Beethoven himself.
Oh-my-god!! If I knew he was coming, I'd have brought all his CDs and made him sign the lot of them and never listen to them again for fear of spoiling the discs.
Anyway, although many of the tracks I have already listened to in orchestral version, but a CD definitely loses to real life hands down. And to top it all of, Nobuo joined the chorus and started singing One-Winged Angel. The most hilarious thing ever.
Ah, I so wish they'll come again. Still, the fun-nest night I had in a long time.
Friday, May 15, 2009
7 more days
Just 7 more days to the Distant Worlds concert! I'm so excited, I'm buzzing about in my computer chair right now.
Programme
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Liberi Fatali
FINAL FANTASY X :
To Zanarkand
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Don’t Be Afraid
FINAL FANTASY VII :
Aerith’s Theme
FINAL FANTASY I-III :
Medley 2002
FINAL FANTASY V :
Dear Friends
FINAL FANTASY IX :
Vamo’ alla Flamenco
FINAL FANTASY XI :
Ronfaure
FINAL FANTASY series :
Main Theme
Intermission
FINAL FANTASY VII :
Opening – Bombing Mission
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Fisherman’s Horizon
FINAL FANTASY XI :
Memoro de la Stono – Distant Worlds
FINAL FANTASY IV :
Theme of Love
FINAL FANTASY series :
Swing de Chocobo
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Love Grows
FINAL FANTASY VI :
Opera “Maria and Draco”
Oh-my-god I simply can't waitt!!! In the meantime, I shall go refresh my memory on all these tracks :3
Programme
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Liberi Fatali
FINAL FANTASY X :
To Zanarkand
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Don’t Be Afraid
FINAL FANTASY VII :
Aerith’s Theme
FINAL FANTASY I-III :
Medley 2002
FINAL FANTASY V :
Dear Friends
FINAL FANTASY IX :
Vamo’ alla Flamenco
FINAL FANTASY XI :
Ronfaure
FINAL FANTASY series :
Main Theme
Intermission
FINAL FANTASY VII :
Opening – Bombing Mission
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Fisherman’s Horizon
FINAL FANTASY XI :
Memoro de la Stono – Distant Worlds
FINAL FANTASY IV :
Theme of Love
FINAL FANTASY series :
Swing de Chocobo
FINAL FANTASY VIII :
Love Grows
FINAL FANTASY VI :
Opera “Maria and Draco”
Oh-my-god I simply can't waitt!!! In the meantime, I shall go refresh my memory on all these tracks :3
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Sharks and lemons
For those who have picked up any old music score before, chances are, you would have seen a hex (#) like sign hanging about somewhere.
I was teaching the meaning of the sign to my beginner today, so I told her to repeat after me:
"This is called a sharp, come, try and say it."
Kid: "Sharp."
Me: "Very good, now, trace it."
Kid: *Silently traces.* "Finished!"
Me: "Okay, what was it called again?"
Kid (Very excitedly trying to prove herself right): "SHARK!!"
Me: "EH?!"
We started laughing our asses off. Jaws has invaded the music world.
The well spoken brat taught me a new phrase today.
Me: "Here, try this part again, let me hear the growing louder part one more time. No problem for you right?"
W.S.B: "Yup, easy peasy, lemon squeezy."
Me: "Huh? Easy what?"
W.S.B: "Easy peasy, lemon squeezy."
Me: "Oh. Right."
Yep, he's six. And yes, he stuck his hand in my bag again, digging around for my stash of Riccolas. I need a padlock for my bag soon.
Dad's home! Dad's home! Dad's home! Only for a coupla days, but DAD'S HOME!
I was teaching the meaning of the sign to my beginner today, so I told her to repeat after me:
"This is called a sharp, come, try and say it."
Kid: "Sharp."
Me: "Very good, now, trace it."
Kid: *Silently traces.* "Finished!"
Me: "Okay, what was it called again?"
Kid (Very excitedly trying to prove herself right): "SHARK!!"
Me: "EH?!"
We started laughing our asses off. Jaws has invaded the music world.
The well spoken brat taught me a new phrase today.
Me: "Here, try this part again, let me hear the growing louder part one more time. No problem for you right?"
W.S.B: "Yup, easy peasy, lemon squeezy."
Me: "Huh? Easy what?"
W.S.B: "Easy peasy, lemon squeezy."
Me: "Oh. Right."
Yep, he's six. And yes, he stuck his hand in my bag again, digging around for my stash of Riccolas. I need a padlock for my bag soon.
Dad's home! Dad's home! Dad's home! Only for a coupla days, but DAD'S HOME!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Nothing
And here comes Monday. That's all I need, cash and cheque to be banked, students to be taught, work to be studied, coffee to be drunk, exams to be passed.
A normal life, a simple life.
Why did I bother about what others said?
P.S The well spoken brat ransacked my bag claiming I 'looked' tired, for sweets. Heh. Kids are easy to read.
A normal life, a simple life.
Why did I bother about what others said?
P.S The well spoken brat ransacked my bag claiming I 'looked' tired, for sweets. Heh. Kids are easy to read.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Pfft
Plagued by insecurity and questions that can't be answered.
Should I? Of course not.
Do I want to? No, I don't need another blackhole in my memory.
Then why I am insecure?
Leave it up to fate and time. In the meantime, all I need is my piano and my students. Yes, those are the only things that matter. Nothing more.
What others think and do is their business, not mine.
(If you were wondering, yes, I'm trying to psycho myself.)
Should I? Of course not.
Do I want to? No, I don't need another blackhole in my memory.
Then why I am insecure?
Leave it up to fate and time. In the meantime, all I need is my piano and my students. Yes, those are the only things that matter. Nothing more.
What others think and do is their business, not mine.
(If you were wondering, yes, I'm trying to psycho myself.)
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